I had been feeling the sadness in the background. It was lingering, but I held it back. I woke Sunday morning and I couldn’t stop it. The grief overwhelmed my ability to run from it. I cried all day. Tears spilling down. Silently. Loudly. I cried at church. I cried at Target. I cried shucking … More Accepting the grief
I remember flipping through my issues of Glamour and seeing articles about how the 30s are the best years of a woman’s life. Me in my mid-twenties was like, how can anything beat this decade. College. Legally drink. Getting married. Having babies. No way is 30 better than 20. Today, I can agree with this. … More My 30s are my best years yet
This divorce has taken a beating on my confidence and self worth. Well, actually, I think I have always had a problem with those two things. I have never been confident in my relationships. With my husband or my friends. I don’t know why. Maybe because I never was vulnerable enough or believed in them … More To my tribe, I am sorry for not believing in you.
Kids say the darnedest things. I mean, having conversations with my kids is fun. Seeing how their little minds work. But have you ever said something to them and were like….um really, did I just say that? Did I really just have to say that out loud to my son?! Yes. Yes I did. I … More Did I just say that?!
My separation and divorce has taken a lot out of me. Sometimes I can’t describe what hell I have gone through. Yet, it has given me so much. It has brought about a life altering change in me. One of them is that it has make me a better mom. Crazy right?! But it’s true. … More Divorce has made me a better mother
I got out of the shower this morning and looked at myself in the mirror. Really looked. I saw a tired woman. I saw the dark circles under her eyes, the extra lines around her mouth, and the stretch marks around her hips. I saw how the grief, hurt, and suffering has aged her body … More Holding onto Hope
Ah motherhood. It’s so grand. I have gone through many stages of what kind of mom I am. I was the arrogant mom (before I actually had kids), the know it all first time mom, the frazzled second time mom, and now I am just going by the seat of my pants mom. Growing up … More I am turning into my mother
Anxiety and social media do not mix well together. There are days that I get sucked into the likes, comments, and virtual word battles. I can feel it inside of me. The shortness of breathe, the head racing, the tightness of my chest. It can make me feel a complete high and a complete low … More Trying to balance social media and anxiety
I am scared. I am fearful of the future. … More The day my divorce was final
This is just the start of sharing my lovely. My light. My darkness is only temporary. But my light is permanent. … More Why Lovely in the Dark?