I am living with depression. Long term clinical depression, often labeled as a chemical imbalance in the brain. Throw a little anxiety in the mix and I can be on the verge of a panic attack all day every day. For me, it is a disease. One that is brushed off and said to be … More I am living with depression and I have no shame
I am scared to let my children play outside alone. They are 6 and almost 4. At an age that if they are in the back playing, I feel comfortable with them outside alone. But I am scared. I have always felt this way. I am scared to leave them alone unattended for anything. To … More I am scared to let my children play outside alone (and it’s not what you think)
Instant gratification is something most people my age and older like to place on younger generations. The millennials and younger. The children we are raising now. Because they have always had technology at their finger tips. Choices upon choices of toys, shows, events to keep them occupied and content. Moments of deep concern in my … More The emptiness of instant gratification
Blooming. That is my 2018 word. Now what? What does that mean to me? How will I do this? How do I bloom? When I think of something blooming, I imagine sunlight, warmth, joy, happiness, color, smiles. Honestly, that sounds pretty easy. A little sun, water, and soil. Viola. A blooming flower. But for how … More Am I brave enough to bloom?
My first time was in college. I was embarrassed and ashamed for needing to do this, so I didn’t let anyone know. Soon I stopped. It was more hassle than help. I tried again 10 years later. I was stuck in a job I hated, lived in a state where I knew no one, and … More Therapy is not a shameful word
Ah January, you cold, frigid, ugly month. You are deceiving to me. The sun is shining bright outside, yet you are arctic cold. It hurts to breathe. Your arrival is a glamour, fun, party. Making me think of goals, resolutions, and changes. Ha, but I know you better than that. You and your bestie February … More Don’t let SAD (seasonal affective disorder) get you down
Honestly, I don’t know why I write or even have this blog. I just do. It happened by accident. I never set out to follow this path. I have always kept a journal, writing how I was thinking or feeling. But, it wasn’t that special. The words were pretty plain. I never would reread my … More Why I Blog
December is a very difficult month for me. This week in particular. Two years ago, on December 15, 2015, I found myself facing a separation and divorce. I believed that day would be forever burned into my mind as my worse day yet. My world shattered. The future bleak. No. I believed there was no … More Surviving my worst days
I have already mentioned that the holidays are not the easiest time for me. I am struggling to get into the Christmas spirit. I attempted Christmas shopping over the weekend and let’s just say if I couldn’t find it at Target, you aren’t getting anything. My house is festively decorated, but the atmosphere is lacking. … More How to be alone on Christmas
For some reason, the end of the year brings many memories flooding back. Maybe it’s the holidays. Maybe it’s reflecting on the past year. Maybe it’s in anticipation of what I would like to happen in the new year. But it occurs more frequently. Especially images and thoughts of my childhood. I had a good … More I hope they remember
