This vacation was a year in the making. Some sun. Some sand. Some wedding festivities. A perfect reason to jet down south and take in a Mexican holiday. Winter was rough. ROUGH. I found myself slugging through depression again. I was mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted. I welcomed this vacation with open arms. The day … More Thank you Mexico for reminding me
Surviving. Living. Thriving. Blooming. Words that I have used to describe myself in the past two years. But there is another one that is very prevalent. Daring. I have never really liked this word. Before, I would have never played truth or dare. It was too iffy, too vulnerable, too risky. I didn’t like risky. … More Sharing my truths and daring to live
I knew motherhood was going to be hard. I read about it. I heard about it. I saw it. All around me. I prepared myself as best as possible and then I was going to just learn as I go. Today, I am still winging it. More now than in the past six years. I … More Loving my strong willed child
The other night in a conversation with a friend, she mentioned a time pre-cancer for her. I said, oh before I knew you. You wouldn’t have been friends with me pre-divorce. She laughed. No, I am serious and it would have been because of me. She chuckles but I was being honest. My friend only … More Believe me when I say I have changed
Honestly, I don’t know why I write or even have this blog. I just do. It happened by accident. I never set out to follow this path. I have always kept a journal, writing how I was thinking or feeling. But, it wasn’t that special. The words were pretty plain. I never would reread my … More Why I blog
December is a very difficult month for me. This week in particular. Two years ago, on December 15, 2015, I found myself facing a separation and divorce. I believed that day would be forever burned into my mind as my worse day yet. My world shattered. The future bleak. No. I believed there was no … More Surviving my worst days
I have already mentioned that the holidays are not the easiest time for me. I am struggling to get into the Christmas spirit. I attempted Christmas shopping over the weekend and let’s just say if I couldn’t find it at Target, you aren’t getting anything. My house is festively decorated, but the atmosphere is lacking. … More How to be alone on Christmas
It’s Thanksgiving week. All month long my Social Media feeds that been filled with gratefulness, blessings, and thankfulness. November is a month to reflect about the people and things in our lives that we might take for granted but we know are truly blessings. I will admit by the end of the month, I tend … More My unconventional blessings
I wrote this last December. Right around the one year mark. Looking back on this year, I have done a pretty good job of staying true to these resolutions. And staying true to myself. Divorce is the death of someone who is still living. And in the past 365 days, I have grieved, cried, mourned, … More My second year resolutions: living after divorce
I almost let myself believe that I was too much. Too intense. Too loud. Too big. I almost let what others think and feel towards me bring me down. Over this past week, my anxiety overtook my confidence and made me believe I shouldn’t be who I am. I am all of these things. I … More I Am Done Apologizing For Who I Am
Lovely in the Dark 